The last official day…well,
sort of. This fasting experience has
completely challenged us in ways we never imagined. Making out our grocery store list for the
weekend, we realized that we are going to continue this journey…for God. We aren’t going to become vegans or anything,
even though I totally get the desire for that now. But, we are only going to bring back a few of
the things we missed during this journey…a few
milk products, a small amount of sugar, and some chocolate. But, overall, this has truly been a
game-changer. Doing something for God
for 21 days has been the coolest experience.
I had no idea that I would get this much from it or spend this kind of
quality time in His presence.
I have learned so
much about myself throughout the last three weeks. It is so sad to think I am almost
forty-years-old, and I am still figuring out how much more I need to seek
You. I thought I was doing such a good
job, living in Your presence, talking to You all day long, asking for Your plan
to be my plan…but
somehow I think I missed the part when You were in charge of me. I have learned to lose control of pretty much
everything, of course, I also found out that I never had control anyway. (Big breakthrough, there…) My soul finally
understands what it means to rest in Your presence and to allow You to work in
such a great degree that I cannot imagine going back to the old me. I know that the world will tempt me , engage
me, and mess me up over and over again…but I
will continue to be drawn back to You letting You lead me, guide me, mold me,
and focus my energy into Your plan for my life.
I am even more excited to see what happens in the coming days now that
I have my own choices to make again. It
was easy to rely on You and make sacrifices for You for the past three
weeks. I wanted to please You, so now I
get to please you more while I struggle with my own free-will. I know that no matter what I do, You will
always be there holding my hand…reminding
me that I am Your daughter…telling
me that You made me for Your purpose…loving
me…and
that is all I need. Thank you God for
leading us to this point in our lives…for
giving us such a desire to know You…for
allowing us to be bold for You…and
for showing me that living a life for You is the only life to live.
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